Friday, November 6, 2009

Dreams

I don't understand why God allows dreams to affect us so much. The past four years I've suffered from sleepless nights because of dreams. Any trial, any loss, any sadness in my life and it visits me in my dreams. So I've become afraid to sleep. But this isn't just me it's happened to... I haven't had sleep issues nearly as bad as some of my loved ones have who've been closer to some of the trials. And now it's happening to one of my dear ones. And I hate it. It makes me so angry.
I understand that life will be full of trials... I've accepted that fact. It's gonna happen to everyone, and I know that good does come out of it. But if you're going through a struggle, WHY must it invade your dreams??? It feels like a slap on the face, quite honestly. In psychology we've been learning about dreams and the different theories for them, and as far as I can tell from what I've learned and my own experiences, dreams involve unresolved problems or things from your day. So from that standpoint I can understand why you dream about the hard things you're going through. What I don't understand is why God allows that. There have been so many prayers for me and this dear one experiencing the dreams now... prayers every night before bed, "God please protect her mind and sleep from these dreams..." and yet they persist. Why?? I don't understand. And it makes me angry.
I love you all. Till next time...

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  2. Love these lyrics, Anna...Makes me think of the Lord calling us to rest in Him. Thought the line about dreams was appropriate for this post:

    "Fall into Me"

    by Sugarland

    "When the weight of the world
    Bears down so strong
    It leaves footprints on the street
    And there's too many miles to face
    Without a few more hours sleep
    The storm clouds overhead won't shed
    Any rain to quench your thirst
    I wanna be the one you reach for first

    When your faith is stretched so thin
    You can see right through your soul
    And you can't find a nickel to buy a smile
    'Cause your pockets all got holes
    You wanna shut the door and hide
    Before the day can get much worse
    I wanna be the one you reach for first

    Fall into me
    My arms are opened wide
    And you don't have to say a word
    'Cause I already see
    That it's hard and you're scared
    And you're tired and it hurts
    I wanna be the one you reach for first

    I wanna be the bottle
    You've been drinking with your eyes
    Or the road you run away on
    You've been runnin' all your life
    The third row pew that you last knew
    As a child in church
    I wanna be the one you reach for first

    Fall into me
    My arms are opened wide
    And you don't have to say a word
    'Cause I already see
    That it's hard and you're scared
    And you're tired and it hurts
    I wanna be the one you reach for first

    Before you turn the key
    Before you fall asleep
    Before you drift away
    To find some demons waiting for you
    In your dreams
    Before you're reaching for the sky
    Before you're searching for direction
    And all the answers to your why's

    Fall into me
    My arms are opened wide
    And you don't have to say a word
    'Cause I already see
    That it's hard and you're scared
    And you're tired and it hurts
    I wanna be the one you reach for first"

    I love you, and pray every night that God will give you "beauty for ashes"...

    Mommy

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