Going Home

Last weekend (ok so now it's been more like 3-4 weekends ago)I went home from Friday to Monday, and I cannot describe how wonderful it was to fly in and see the space needle from the plane window. I've seen that beautiful sight much more than once, but never after being gone for three months. I love living here in SoCal, I'm not going to lie, but Seattle is still my home. It always will be, of that I am sure.

I originally decided to go home for Arthur - to surprise him at his show, and then God worked in that my sister would happen to need me and I could spend time with her that weekend as well. I spent a little of Friday afternoon and all of Saturday with her, and it was so great! I miss both my sisters so much, and I was glad I could be there.

The first morning I was there, I woke up in one of my own beds, went upstairs, climbed in my mom's bed with her, and we talked for at least half an hour. I've missed that so much! I also got to see both sets of grandparents this weekend - it had been too long since I'd seen them! I miss my family so much!

12/10/09
Well I wrote all of that a while ago but things have been so busy that it's been hard to post lately! Life has been very busy, and now it's only 8 days till I go home again! This time it will be for 6 weeks! =) I'm very excited. I'm really gonna miss my Biola girls though! God has blessed me so much with my friends here...
The past few weekends have been fun... a couple different random Disneyland Sprees =) It's decorated for Christmas now and it's SO MAGICAL! It's always magical, but the Christmas decor only makes it more so. When I went with Anna and Hannah a few weeks ago they made me go on tower of terror - ahhhh!!! So scary! But it was great fun too =) I know that probably doesn't impress all of you, but it's a pretty big deal for me... =P
Last weekend I went on Anna and Hannah's GYRAD (Get Your Roommate A Date) as Anna's date. We went to the beach and had dinner on the pier.. pretty great date! Plenty of the fun kind of awkwardness... =) haha =P
Thanksgiving break was such a relaxing and MUCH NEEDED break... I got to stay with the Tullsens and it was wonderful =) Lots of relaxation and quality time with some of my favorite people, and I even got some homework done as well.
The homework has picked up... but shouldn't be too bad now that I finished my 8 page biography paper for history - HOOOORAYY! I have a final tomorrow in English (an in class essay), one to hand in next Wednesday (it was a take home, open-book - how awesome is that???), an exam on Monday in Psychology (it's our 5th one of the semester, so pretty routine for me), one Tuesday in Old Testament (our 3rd one of the semester, so not stressed about it), NOTHING next Wednesday =) and a final on Thursday in my Foundations class. The end is sooo close! I can't believe I've almost finished my first semester at college and away from home.
Saturday is the gospel choir performance. I'm looking forward to that if I can find a ride... things are looking pretty bleak right now (so far only three students in a class of 25-30 can drive) and I REALLLY would love to go... Pray I can find a ride? If things all work out we will be at the church (it's an hour and a half away) by two so we can take pictures with our director, there's a VIP reception for us at four (sounds way cooler than it is - I think the choirs performing are the VIPs... he didn't really say), and then the recording starts at six. CDs and DVDs should be available after the show, so I'm happy my family can still hear it/see it!
Well. Seeing as my final is at 8, and it's 12:30 now, I should at least try to get some sleep. So goodnight for now, friends. Till next time. I love you all.

Dreams

I don't understand why God allows dreams to affect us so much. The past four years I've suffered from sleepless nights because of dreams. Any trial, any loss, any sadness in my life and it visits me in my dreams. So I've become afraid to sleep. But this isn't just me it's happened to... I haven't had sleep issues nearly as bad as some of my loved ones have who've been closer to some of the trials. And now it's happening to one of my dear ones. And I hate it. It makes me so angry.
I understand that life will be full of trials... I've accepted that fact. It's gonna happen to everyone, and I know that good does come out of it. But if you're going through a struggle, WHY must it invade your dreams??? It feels like a slap on the face, quite honestly. In psychology we've been learning about dreams and the different theories for them, and as far as I can tell from what I've learned and my own experiences, dreams involve unresolved problems or things from your day. So from that standpoint I can understand why you dream about the hard things you're going through. What I don't understand is why God allows that. There have been so many prayers for me and this dear one experiencing the dreams now... prayers every night before bed, "God please protect her mind and sleep from these dreams..." and yet they persist. Why?? I don't understand. And it makes me angry.
I love you all. Till next time...