Sleepless nights

I feel like I have a lot of those. Haha, that's probably because I do.

I'm feeling discouraged today. I started out so strong a few weeks ago... (almost a month actually! Friday it will be a month since I moved). Started so strong with sleeping I mean. I was out when I lay my head on the pillow, and could sleep almost the whole night through. I think I got 7-8 hours every night for maybe 2 weeks even. I was so sooooo excited about that. Apparently things are back to normal now. 4-5 hours nightly.

I wish you could just turn off your brain at night. How amazing would that be? I'm listening to Owl City (one of my favorite bands at the moment), "Saltwater Room." They're who I listen to on these nights... and Shanna's "sleep" playlist she made me. Just turned it on, Shanna! :)

Haha, so here's a story you all will like :) This morning, around 6 am (finally fell asleep at 2 last night, planning on getting up at 7) I heard this banging on my door. It was pretty frantic and at first Mary and I thought it was just Mary-Beth (our adopted roomie), but she's not obnoxious like that, so anyhow, we let the knocking hands in (stupidly), and it turns out the hands belonged to our RAs. Well. They told us we had 5 minutes to get up and get out to the hall. I was PISSED OFF. (We'd been hearing terrible stories all week about random "initiation/bonding" times for dorm halls) So we got into the hall, stood amongst other angry girls, and got our faces painted. We were then told to hold hands as we all walked out of our dorm to a grassy knoll on the other side of campus. There we were given a donut, a card from our RA's (who begged us not to hate them), and a schpeal about being a "family"and I honestly don't know what else cause I wasn't really listening. Then we had to hold hands with a girl we didn't know, and walk back to our dorm. Mary and I walked into our room to hear our wake up alarms going off. How DUMB. I'm not a fan of any sort of initiation or orientation things. In case you couldn't tell.

I was soooooooo mad alllll day... first thing I did today was call Arthur and vent. Unless someone needs to cry or talk or something like that, I will NEVER be happy about being woken up early. It angers me tremendously. I sound like a drama queen I know. But since I don't usually get a lot of sleep, all the hours I do get are VITAL. So this morning did not bode well with me. Sadly my RAs are too nice to stay mad at them for long, however. Bahhh.

HAAMM has quite a few weekly rituals now. It's wonderful and I love it. Tonight most of us went down to the workout room and worked out while doing hw reading. It was such a great stress reliever! When we were done we played around on the stairmasters, trying to see what would happen if we put it on the highest level. I won't try to describe it, just know that it was pretty funny. :)

God has truly blessed me with these girls and our friendship. I can hangout one on one with any of them and have a great time. We're all friends. It's a blessing. THANK YOU, GOD! It's been so weird though, to make new friends who know nothing about you or your story yet. Well maybe not nothing, but ya know what I mean? That's what I wanted. And I'm glad I have it. I just didn't know it would be... hard. I'm used to having friends around me who can read my mind. Depending on the friend that was good or bad, but I miss the comfort in the good of that. It's weird having to explain my story to people. Not that I really have yet. But it's a weird thought for me. It's just another way God is streching me. Cause I happen to believe we all, each and everyone of us, have a story to be shared. Every one of them is beautiful and perfect even if you don't know why yet. I believe I have a story that should be shared... I want God to be glorified in it. Maybe that's part of why I'm down here, in a place where people now know me, but don't really know... me.

haha or maybe I'm just a drama queen. I shouldn't write this late. How embarrassing. Whatever. I love you all. Till next time!